Being brought up in a Christian home where we’d pray before a meal and go to church on a Sunday has meant I don’t remember a time when I didn’t believe in God. I knew the bible stories and understood how Jesus had come to earth as a man, but that didn’t make me a Christian, as I didn’t yet have my own relationship with God.
I’d say this happened on a summer camp aged 8 when I first understood why Jesus had died for me and that I needed saving. I realised I needed to repent and so I prayed, inviting him into my life. Although nothing miraculous happened and there was no immediate transformation visible, something significant had changed as from then on I was called a daughter of God and lived with him as ruler over my life, trusting him. This isn’t easy, as I still want to make my own plans and have to constantly return to him for forgiveness.
Since then, I’ve grown a lot in my understanding of God’s love for me. This was made particularly clear this summer when on camp one song really struck me. It’s based on 1 John 3:2, saying, “we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is”. This really excited me, as I realised that even though I mess up and sin and put other things above God, one day I will be made new, and be made like Jesus, the only perfect human. This filled with a longing to live for him and a joy that one day I will be able to see my Father and Saviour.