First of all, I would just like to extend my biggest thanks to all of you who are here today to join me in a very important event and decision of my life - the public declaration of my faith and belief in Christ Jesus. I was blessed to be born in a Christian home. My paternal grandfather was a pastor and he used to turn his little home in Hong Kong into a small local church every Sunday. There is where I was brought up. I still remember I used to sit right in front of the preacher during sermons and my aunt would always praise me for being attentive and focus in listening but actually, I was just trying very hard to stay awake. So even though I was immersed in a “Christian” sort of environment, I was just listening to many interesting, or sometimes boring, stories without actually truly believing.
Then my family migrated to Singapore when I was nine, and I grew up pretty much just like everyone else there - studying, studying and studying. After my A-levels, I spent two and a half years in the army as part of my national service. It was quite a daunting experience as it was my first time staying away from home. This opened up a new stage of my life, a new environment, a ‘real’ world. There were new challenges but life was still pretty okay then as I was still with my family in Singapore. I was still going to Church almost every Sunday when I booked out of camp and I thought I was a pretty okay Christian.
The turning point came through the Lord’s gift of my admission to the University of Cambridge. Before coming to the UK, I received an email from Grace Yang asking me if I would be interested in joining the Cambridge Chinese Christian Fellowship (CCCF). I attended one of the bible studies at Audrey Pang’s place and was welcomed warmly to the group. When I arrived in Cambridge, I joined the CCCF immediately. I was also brought to Eden Baptist by Grace and started my church life here. Everything was fine for my first year so I sort of carried on with my life just like before. It was only until my second year in Cambridge that I was hurt quite badly by relationship issues. I drifted away from CCCF, church and even the Christian friends around me.
Some of my very dear Christian friends, Ben Sun and Melissa Hong, offered to pray for me, but I chased them away, literally. At the same time, I began to doubt and took another look at my faith. I began to wonder how my knowledge of Christianity squared with my feelings and why I have reacted in such a way. How can my faith be so frail and fragile that I am denying the help of my friends and not believing in prayer anymore? The story of how Peter denied Christ three times before the crow of the rooster came into mind. I wanted to believe in Christ and all I had stand for but I didn’t feel like doing so and couldn’t at that time. But the Lord said this to Simon Peter and I quote from Luke 22:31-32, “Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.”
And Paul wrote in 2 Corinthians 12:9, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
Eventually, I prayed to God for forgiveness and ask Him to draw me back to Him again. He graciously answered my prayers, and with the help and support of my Christian friends around me, I began to learn more about him again. What was merely head knowledge from the past has now become apparent to me. The Lord has opened my eyes to realise the importance of Christ’s sacrificial death on the cross for my sins. Whatever burden, fear or guilt that I have, whatever sins or wrongs that I have committed, are covered by Christ’s blood on the cross. I could now look forward to being fulfilled and renewed daily in him, and to live life to the full through the meaning of life he has given me.
Looking back, I know that God and Christ have always been there for me through the many blessings which He has given me. So here I am to make a public declaration today to acknowledge that Christ is my Saviour, as part of my willingness in response to His grace, mercy, and countless blessings, and that I would like to follow Him for the rest of my life.