I am follower of Jesus Christ. He is God’s Son, fully God and fully man, my Lord and Saviour. Though he knew that I would turn my back on him again and again, Jesus still thought it worth dying on a cross some 2000 years ago to bring me God’s love rather than the condemnation which I deserve. But God the Father raised his Son Jesus from the dead, and has given him all authority in the universe. The same Jesus now offers me life - a life by no means free of pain, but nonetheless life in all its fullness, a life of joy.
I was born into a Christian home. I was baptised as an infant and confirmed in the Anglican Church at the age of 15. I date my Christian life from my confirmation. I had no ‘road to Damascus’ conversion experience; but it was around this time that I began to discover that there was more to life than football and doing well at school. Through the witness of my parents, friends and adults at Church and in my youth fellowship I saw first-hand the attractiveness of the Christian life, and so signed up for the confirmation class. Here I absorbed the basic Gospel truths for the first time, and pledged to follow Jesus.
My faith grew throughout my final years at school, and during my gap-year in France. As an undergraduate I attended St Andrew the Great Church and was a member of the Christian Union at Selwyn College. I spent my Year Abroad working for the International Fellowship of Evangelical Students in Nice. This was a year of great spiritual encouragement, again being part of God’s work in France and helping the student Christian Unions to grow there.
However, my faith was tested in my final undergraduate year, when I went through a period of severe anxiety, fearing that I would fail my exams. Sometimes all our problems come at once so that we fall on our knees, crying out to Jesus in desperation. Jesus was faithful. He did not abandon me - after all, I’m still here in Cambridge! No, Jesus did infinitely more than I could have asked for or imagined. He has opened doors for postgraduate study at Sidney Sussex College. He has added many wonderful people to my circle of friends - not least of which is Abigail, my future wife.
My faith is imperfect in many ways. The French philosopher, Blaise Pascal, captured the Christian life this paradox: ‘If man is not made for God, why is he happy only in God? If man is made for God, why is he so opposed to God?’ Like Pascal I go through periods of praising God and resisting his will. The challenge for me, at all times, is to look beyond morbid introspection to consider the bigger picture - of a God who throughout history has been calling people from all nations to himself, through his Son Jesus.
By being baptised today, I am looking to the future. This is me saying: ‘I turn away from my sins, to Jesus who can save me.’ I ask you to pray with me that neither doubts, suffering, pride, busyness nor apathy would blind me to the living Lord Jesus, whose wonderful love and faithfulness to me is unswerving.